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The Home They’ve healed me to pieces. Paul Celan
They’ve locked me in a closet in a three story home—with only Mama inside, still screaming her stories: You’re the Bad Seed, you need to be sorry. They’ve given me tasks to pretend I am sorry: I eat my breakfast, I pick at the scabs that erupt in my face, I dig holes in the closet to bury the latest dolls who’ve come back—Mary, Melinda, Chatty Cathy. They’ve opened the closet and let me be free—for three whole hours— walking on a beach, making plans for tomorrow.—Then shoved me back in. They play games, they have reasons. Or claim they have reasons. They’ve invented a war in a nightmare country: Bang bang cry the boys as the dolls explode in the street. Boom boom goes my head as I curl up for sleep. They knit the flags, they pronounce the deadlines: September 15th, a party for freedom. They give out their medals as the dazed soldiers make speeches: I am almost like new, I love my steel eyes. They say and they say: This is your home, what else could it be? They have stolen my words but keep pumping in air, thousands of hours of seemingly limitless air. But it’s beautiful beautiful. They keep moving my lips with two wood sticks: What’s the meaning of this?—It’s just a simulation. (They still prop me up at the entrance to the home.) And the real life happens next week.
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